Words are walls. Sometimes i am finding myself cleaning things rather than writing. Cleaning is very difficult for me. i know that if i can get the words flowing they will eventually break free with the force of the Colorado River at the Boulder Dam.
The force is caught in a quagmire of fear. i am not at all sure what fear holds the words like gelatine that has coagulated and will not pour. i wish that i were not a pitcher filled with praise.
Penitence for the brokenness of my soul warms my nous and like a flame melts my distraction. When i appreciate that everything is a gift, i am set free to glorify God. i want to blame the world. The culture has not refrigerated my soul. i have moved away from the flame of Divine Love. i was the one who focused on the fallen leaves and the grime in the oven.
Grace is so wonderful. i can turn my attention back on Christ and His love warms my soul. All i need is to stop and praise God.
Glory to the Almighty Lord, Father, Son, and Holy Spirit!
This is not a post about presents, but it is about being present. Today’s Commonplace Book quotes come from one of my very favorite contemporary books. Indeed, it spoke right into my heart at a time that i desperately needed the message.
My absolute favorite modern non-Orthodox book is One Thousand Gifts, by Ann Voskamp. You have probably read the book yourself. If you have not i cannot recommend it higher.
For this recovering perfectionist, she told me precisely what i needed to know. The heartfelt truth is that she told me what i already suspected, and was not ready to put into practice until i read the book.
“All my eyes can seem to fixate on are the splatters of disappointment across here and me.”
Without recognizing what i was doing, i was living the life God gave me inside-out.
God gives us everything we need. He blesses us beyond our ability to measure or comprehend, yet for too many of us, it becomes a life of scarcity.
We fear and fear gives birth to a lack of gratitude.
Humanity’s discontent is the genesis of the fall in Genesis. Voskamp quotes Alexander Schmemann’s For the Life of the Word, C.S. Lewis, Julian of Norwich, and other great thinkers of the ages to guide the reader to a recognition that everything that happens is a gift from God.
After listing thousands of gifts myself, i can attest to the difference that an intentional attitude of gratitude can make.
Watching an art show reminded me today, that shadow creates form. My problem is that i am leaving the light out of my thinking some days.
God allows only enough dark for us to see the form. i forget to notice the light. The sun is always shining.
To quote another of my very favorite bloggers, Father Steven Freeman,
“Glory to God.”